The Journey Continues

So its happening... As of August 17 our little family will be moving to a remote community in Northern Ontario called Lac Seul. Its a very exciting and somewhat scary adventure that we're about to embark on for sure. Not so much in an outdoor environment sense, more so in living and taking part in such a different culture. My wife has often spoke of her willingness to teach First Nation children even prior to knowing about the amazing teaching organization known as Teach For Canada. What is Teach For Canada you ask? It is a non-profit teacher recruiting organization that works with First Nation communities in finding great teachers and to also prepare and provide support for the teachers of these communities. As I type this my wife has just begun the second week of a three week summer enrichment program to prepare the teachers for what lies ahead. I can tell you from secondhand experience that it is an extremely informative and in-depth program that has led to many late nights and long days.

Leading up to the summer enrichment program our little family had rarely seen time apart. Having been off work since September 2015 Ive focused solely raising my beautiful little boy and his older brother and strengthening my bond with my beautiful wife. It really has been a once in a lifetime opportunity being able to do so, specially with seeing my youngest son grow so very much enjoying and learning in his first year of life on planet Earth. With both mom and maman being home, the boys have been on countless outdoor adventures, whether it be kayaking, snorkeling, swimming or snowshoeing. The values that are instilled into these young minds really are amazingly special. Being so closely connected with mother nature is something that has been lost in the tech savvy, full steam ahead way of life that has consumed most of the world at this point and in some ways it truly is sad. I see teens so focused on capturing a Pokemon in the recently released game Pokemon Go for instance. How has this activity gained the upper hand against the infinitely beautiful and complex world of the outdoors. To say that I'm 100% unhappy with this is not true however, as it has offered a demographic of people the opportunity to at least escape their gaming rooms, though it somehow seems slightly insincere. This opinion coming from a girl who has put her fare share of time behind a gaming controller. To me it simply reinforces the importance of instilling a connection with nature into my children. Through hard work and great determination my wife has achieved this great experience. It really does bring tears to my eyes knowing that she too holds these great values as well as the power to push through such adversity. Words really cannot express just how much I truly love this woman. While speaking at a recent LGBT inclusion meeting, the most beautiful and sincere words come from her mouth and I could not have said it any better. She said; "There is a Jennifer without Mïta and then there's a Jennifer with Mïta.. " Implying that I somehow help her in achieving even greater things in life than she would be able to being alone. These words really did hit me right down to the very core of my being and soul and every time they ring in my head it brings me to literal tears. To this I would reciprocate them right back at her two fold.. She really does take me to heights I would have never dreamt of achieving. Every day I wake up beside the most beautiful woman I have ever laid eyes upon, both in beauty and perhaps even more so in a caring and compassionate sense. Its also been tough over this three week course that she is partaking in not having her around. There is a giant emptiness in our home everyday and an even greater one every night beside me. Its also been a fight to calm my mind and fall into the dreamworld knowing she isn't around. This short term sacrifice however is going to bring our little family to new heights and allow us to experience amazing things and I can say with the utmost certainty, that there isn't any other person on this planet whom I'd rather live this experience and journey with than my wife... Xoxo

Tipping The Scales

Loving someone... The most emotionally rewarding and possibly damaging thing one can ever endure. The highs achieved in the tornado of love are truly unmeasurable and the lows bring you tumbling down towards the centre of the earth at the speed of light. For when you love someone to the very core, all barriers and walls erected to protect oneself in life's daily routine are brought down for this person. Letting them into your life , your being and your soul. Sharing each others thoughts and coming together in a binding of body's and minds. Such is the way to live the highest possible highs. To experience happiness with an overflowing sense of euphoria, drifting through life together from one amazement to the other. The only problem with this however, is the potential for heartache. A pain that can haunt you into your dreams and the thought of escaping its damaging effects becomes a cry for survival. Love has given lives worth living over and over till the end of time and yet it has also taken countless lives with some finding death to be the only escape from its lingering pain. Love should be accepted anytime it presents itself. In my short life experience with love and its intertwining into my life, its embrace has helped create the person I am today. Its built and reinforced my person in ways so much greater than having no love in my life could have ever done. Love is binding and when shared with the right person, has the potential to blossoms into the most beautiful flower.

Where to start..

Where to start.... It's been a little over one year since I last updated my blog and honestly to cover all of it in one blog post would be way to long of a read. So where to start then? In short I've gone from a single trans-lesbian woman to having a girlfriend, to finding out we we're pregnant, to getting married and now together our beautiful little family has grown

Much has changed since March 29th of 2014. My wife and I have come together and created the most amazing and special bond. "They" say opposites attract and in a few ways we are, but I think the best representation of our bond would be one in which two very similar individuals came together to become one. Both being very high energy people, not ones to sit around all day. Both outdoor lovers eager to paddle our lakes and rivers, camp out in the wilderness and hike all the great places that we're so very fortunate to live close to.
A year into our partnership, we got married! A small ceremony with only our mothers(and dogs) there to witness the ordeal. Later that evening we had an amazing dinner with grandparents, uncle, brother, sister and best friends family there to share our love and bond. My wife being 7months pregnant was glowing so beautifully that day and I'll always remember it till the day I pass..


The bliss of the wedding carried us through a great winter here in northern Ontario. Soon the snow began to slow, the days began to stretch out and we found ourselves coming ever closer to our due date. The day we would be able to meet our little baby boy in person. Forty weeks came.. We grew very anxious and excited but the time wasn't right. Days two, three came and went  Still nothing. Four flew by quickly with no hint of our baby wanting to come into the world. Day five hit with a bang, contractions started! Was this finally the time our little guy was coming to say hi? Off to the hospital we went. The nurses admitted us into a room and monitored my wife closely but by this time the everything had subsided. The day to see our little baby boy would have to wait. The next day we decided to enjoy a day outdoors in the bush snowshoeing. Yes, snowshoeing at 40 weeks +6 days pregnant! It was a beautifully sunny and mild day. We hiked across the top of the packed snow with such ease due to the thaw and freezing which had been happening over the past few days. Such an amazing experience and it also allowed my wife to stretch out her legs and hips. The dogs also ran around with great ease flying across the crusty snow. We met up with her parents at the cottage soon thereafter, shared a fantastic lunch outside and caught up on all the events that had transpired over the last few months. Sleep came very easily for the two of us that night at home in bed. Little did we know that the 41 week mark was going to be a day of amazement.. Six AM came and next thing I knew my wife was up in the bathroom. I then heard her say "Mïta!!" She ran into the room standing over the doggy bed with a smile and pointing downward. Her water broke!! Off to the hospital once again and at 3:30PM that afternoon we were graced with the presence of our gorgeous little baby boy, Léoden Pereira Gibson.


The happiness that comes with seeing your baby come into this world is really quite hard to put into words. They are a part of you, in flesh and blood. Binding your you and your partner in the tightest of ways. Everything you do from here on in is for them, without question or complaint. In the beginning my wife and I shared in the breast feeding duties. Yes, I breastfed my baby boy and it was one of the most magical experiences I will ever have in my life.  Experts claim that it is one of the greatest ways for mother and baby to bond and  without question that holds true. Being a trans woman and having been on HRT(Hormone Replacement Therapy) for a few years had given my body the tools required to produce colostrum and breast milk(though not as much as my wife). There were slight changes in my HRT regime that needed to be taken but they were a small tradeoff to experience the magic and mother-child connection it gave us. Together my wife and I have made it a point to give our family the most outdoor-rich experience we can possible give them. Léo at the age of  three months old enjoyed his first time in a kayak and since then has been hiking, enjoyed the view from a mountain top several times and experienced countless lakes around our beautiful area here in Northern Ontario. At seven months old now he has become quite the little bundle of smiles and energy.  A mouth full of teeth,(eight at the time I write this and first one came at three and a half months of age) furniture walking, floor sweeping, dog chasing and brother hair pulling little boy, and moms could not be any happier :)

Feel free to follow my family's online Instagram page as well as our Youtube channel at the links below :)

https://www.instagram.com/mitagibson/

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC9WlBgT1oVj267Fzaj7ZzzQ

Paths In Our Lives...

From one day to the next as life travels you by, one rarely takes the time to fully look at the possibilities of the near future and the possible paths that could have been taken. It not until something impact-full on your daily routine befalls you, do you realize the full potential of the path that you stepped from. Being aware of the life you have is the key to gaining  the most out of every moment and foresight to welcome the marvels of life...

                                                                    
 Mïta.

Boobie Tuesday!!!! Dreams achieved!!!

Buster my therapy dog :)

Happy eight week old boobies!! Over the past few weeks of healing I've been taking notice and noting the changes that I have been experiencing and thought that maybe my experiences could possibly help someone in a similar situation as myself who's thinking of having breast augmentation surgery. Just to note, these are my own personal experiences in regards to my recovery.

The Waking..
Awaking from a narcotic induced sleep is an interesting experience. Your senses seem to come alive one by one. First your sight, like a layer of thin sheets being pulled off one by one until you regain focus over the course of what seemed like a few minutes or so. My sense of hearing was also slightly muffled as I awoke, as if my ears were full of cotton balls. It didn't take long however to realise that there was something different about how my chest felt. Slightly constricted, tingly in certain area but for the most part numb, however the new weight on my chest was a feeling that I had dreamt of having my whole life. The nurse was the first person I saw followed by the doctor, they both stood there smiling at me for a few seconds then proceeded to bring my girlfriend in the recovery room. The amount of happiness and emotion that flowed through me the moment she entered the room was something I will never forget till the day I physically leave this planet. Her smile and beautiful eyes broke me down the second our eyes met. Tears rolled down my cheeks as she came to my bedside to hold me and we smiled there, together..


Recovery...
Now by my personal choice I decided before the surgery that I was not going to take painkillers during the healing process. My theory is that I would rather be sober and able to listen to what my body is telling me rather than be numb to the signals my body is sending. It proved to be a great choice in the end as I was able to recover extremely quickly and to get back to a very physically demanding workplace within three weeks of surgery. For my recovery, we planned to stay with my girlfriends parents for the week as I had to do a follow-up three days after surgery to have drains removed before we travelled back to my hometown. The night of surgery was what I would call uncomfortable. The biggest issue I had with recovery was sleeping, due to being limited to only being able to sleep on my back. I was only able to sleep on my sides four to five days after the procedure due to the tightness of my skin. Getting dressed was also a trying activity. With my range of motion being severely limited, getting dressed was shall I say, difficult and having the extra help of my girlfriend proved to be invaluable! The day after surgery was a stiff one. Again having someone with you to help with every day easy-to-reach tasks is very helpful! For the rest of the week my boobs would be tightly bound by tensor bands and I would wear a sports bra over them until my drains were removed. Now with the drains, I was having to log the amount of fluid and time of day every time I drained the fluid which was no big deal. Day by day as the week progressed there were noticeable gains in range of motion and flexibility and by day three I was finally able to lift my arms over my head once again. On the follow up day we entered my surgeons office to have the drains removed and have the "girls" checked over before we departed from the big city of Toronto. Having the drains removed was slightly discomforting with the remaining holes(one for each side) being sealed by a water tight surgical tape which I would need to change until the incisions were fully healed every other day along with the implant incision as well.

Week To Week Progress..
 Going into surgery my bra size was a small A cup which was a huge benefit in regards to be able to fit a larger implant than was originally planed due to having more skin and breast tissue available to stretch. The results are quite amazing to say the least as pictures will show. Having gone as big as my skin would physically allow meant that the changes in the coming months would be quite dramatic as well. What began as large, firm round orbs atop my chest slowly began to settle, soften and plump up. In the 3 weeks following surgery I would go from a D to a DD solely based on the skin stretching. Issues that arise from loss of feeling due to nerve stretch and damage as a result of the augmentation are different again from person to person. For myself, the numbness began to subside on the fourth day after surgery. It came back first on my right side with the left side about a week behind. The one thing that I am very happy about as a side effect of the augmentation is an increased sensitivity to touch which is rather nice I might add.  Sitting at eight weeks now as I type this, the transformations are still happening. There is still some shaping happening, there is still changes is skin feeling as well. Another thing to add to this would be the fact that I am and have been on HRT(Hormone Replacement Therapy) so changes that are happening with the surgery are coinciding with the changes from the hormones. This whole event and adventure has truly been a dream that I HAVE realised!! It has taken a lifetime to happen but the point being is that if you truly have a dream or achievement that you wish to live, is to buckle down and do whatever it takes to get it done! There are more things that I need to achieve in this for sure and this amazing event has only reinforced the idea that all those things WILL happen because that is what needs to be done!! Live your dreams, strive for them and never let anything get in your way or stop you from realising all of them!!!!!

Mïta..

Hate And The Battle to End It...

Below is a reply I made on Breast Augmentation Forum in regards to some very discriminatory and hateful words made by the moderators.

"Firstly I would like to say that I am now 7 days post-op and healing amazingly quickly thanks to my doctors amazing work(Dr. Marc Dupere) and good genes ;) On the 14th of January I had Allergen 700cc silicone overs and simply, could not be happier :) My body now matches the girl Ive for so long wished to be :) I'd like to thank all the women on here for sharing their stories and answering pretty much every question that could be thought of. Now my story is a little different than most but I know there are some of you out there like me that are/were hiding and I feel the need to bring this out in the open after having read a post in the FAQ section which kind of well, engaged me a lil bit. See link and text below.."

http://www.justbreastimplants.com/forum/forum-faq/143586-transsexual-men-forum.html

[Recently, we had a transsexual man join the forum. This member was having SRA (sexual reassignment surgery), which includes ba. While I would love to be able to provide support in these types of cases, we just can't. We just don't have the knowledge base for that. Additionally, we've done polls on the forum over the years which asked the question "Are you comfortable with men having ba being on the forum?". Each time, the very large majority votes a resounding "no". The forum has to cater to the larger majority, otherwise there is no forum without members.

We do have gay women on the forum, which no one has ever had a problem with. Men, even if they are having surgery to change their sex, still make some women uncomfortable due to the personal nature of the forum. For this reason, transsexuals are not allowed. It has nothing to do with anyone's views on the subject. On a personal note, I'm very pro when it comes to the rights of the LGBT community.

Just wanted to post and clear this up.]

Now I could go on and on about this for days in regards to the uninformed and insensitive nature of the post but will try to keep it short. Firstly, "Transsexual Men" are men who were born in a female body, just as transsexual women are women who were born in a male body. Secondly, these polls in regards to "men having BA's on the forum" does not address the issue at hand. Is goes way beyond the "bits-and-pieces" that physically differentiate the sexes. Transgendered women ARE WOMEN!!. They are not men "trying to be women" Without a doubt there are transgendered women on this forum hiding because of this very serious error in judgement on the part of the mods on this forum. These girls are looking for information just like EVERY SINGLE CIS WOMAN ON THIS FORUM!! We need to get this information out in the open because it only leads to a large group of girls on the interweb feeling the need to hide who they are when in fact they are so much like each and every one of you, looking for answers to the same question you do. I would ask that the mods remove this hateful and severely misinformed post. If I end up being banned for this, I would like to again thank all the women on here for sharing all of their great and sincere information because it has helped me and MANY transgendered women like myself, this I know for sure :)

Mïta

I would ask any anyone who reads this to visit that forum and please voice your disapproval for these discriminatory remarks in a kind and respectful manner to help fight and change the way people view this incredibly important subject. Thank you to everyone who takes the time to read this blog and act on the hateful speech.

Boob humor 101

Boob humor 101:
Everyday uses of an ample bosom
1.They make a great portable table for resting your plate/bowl while snacking on the couch
2.Catching stray food bits like popcorn from hitting the floor saves on sweeping time

3.Cuddle pillows for a sleepy child or puppy, instant sleepy eyes
4.Fantastic stress balls for yourself and partner with the side effect of increased libido
5.Somehow have become an extra grab point/anchor point for a climbing child's hands and feet, ouch
6.Hypnotic focal point for complete strangers; somehow causing random people to shut out the world around them with a funny awakening like they've risen from a dream where they were falling!! Lol