Paths In Our Lives...

From one day to the next as life travels you by, one rarely takes the time to fully look at the possibilities of the near future and the possible paths that could have been taken. It not until something impact-full on your daily routine befalls you, do you realize the full potential of the path that you stepped from. Being aware of the life you have is the key to gaining  the most out of every moment and foresight to welcome the marvels of life...

                                                                    
 Mïta.

Boobie Tuesday!!!! Dreams achieved!!!

Buster my therapy dog :)

Happy eight week old boobies!! Over the past few weeks of healing I've been taking notice and noting the changes that I have been experiencing and thought that maybe my experiences could possibly help someone in a similar situation as myself who's thinking of having breast augmentation surgery. Just to note, these are my own personal experiences in regards to my recovery.

The Waking..
Awaking from a narcotic induced sleep is an interesting experience. Your senses seem to come alive one by one. First your sight, like a layer of thin sheets being pulled off one by one until you regain focus over the course of what seemed like a few minutes or so. My sense of hearing was also slightly muffled as I awoke, as if my ears were full of cotton balls. It didn't take long however to realise that there was something different about how my chest felt. Slightly constricted, tingly in certain area but for the most part numb, however the new weight on my chest was a feeling that I had dreamt of having my whole life. The nurse was the first person I saw followed by the doctor, they both stood there smiling at me for a few seconds then proceeded to bring my girlfriend in the recovery room. The amount of happiness and emotion that flowed through me the moment she entered the room was something I will never forget till the day I physically leave this planet. Her smile and beautiful eyes broke me down the second our eyes met. Tears rolled down my cheeks as she came to my bedside to hold me and we smiled there, together..


Recovery...
Now by my personal choice I decided before the surgery that I was not going to take painkillers during the healing process. My theory is that I would rather be sober and able to listen to what my body is telling me rather than be numb to the signals my body is sending. It proved to be a great choice in the end as I was able to recover extremely quickly and to get back to a very physically demanding workplace within three weeks of surgery. For my recovery, we planned to stay with my girlfriends parents for the week as I had to do a follow-up three days after surgery to have drains removed before we travelled back to my hometown. The night of surgery was what I would call uncomfortable. The biggest issue I had with recovery was sleeping, due to being limited to only being able to sleep on my back. I was only able to sleep on my sides four to five days after the procedure due to the tightness of my skin. Getting dressed was also a trying activity. With my range of motion being severely limited, getting dressed was shall I say, difficult and having the extra help of my girlfriend proved to be invaluable! The day after surgery was a stiff one. Again having someone with you to help with every day easy-to-reach tasks is very helpful! For the rest of the week my boobs would be tightly bound by tensor bands and I would wear a sports bra over them until my drains were removed. Now with the drains, I was having to log the amount of fluid and time of day every time I drained the fluid which was no big deal. Day by day as the week progressed there were noticeable gains in range of motion and flexibility and by day three I was finally able to lift my arms over my head once again. On the follow up day we entered my surgeons office to have the drains removed and have the "girls" checked over before we departed from the big city of Toronto. Having the drains removed was slightly discomforting with the remaining holes(one for each side) being sealed by a water tight surgical tape which I would need to change until the incisions were fully healed every other day along with the implant incision as well.

Week To Week Progress..
 Going into surgery my bra size was a small A cup which was a huge benefit in regards to be able to fit a larger implant than was originally planed due to having more skin and breast tissue available to stretch. The results are quite amazing to say the least as pictures will show. Having gone as big as my skin would physically allow meant that the changes in the coming months would be quite dramatic as well. What began as large, firm round orbs atop my chest slowly began to settle, soften and plump up. In the 3 weeks following surgery I would go from a D to a DD solely based on the skin stretching. Issues that arise from loss of feeling due to nerve stretch and damage as a result of the augmentation are different again from person to person. For myself, the numbness began to subside on the fourth day after surgery. It came back first on my right side with the left side about a week behind. The one thing that I am very happy about as a side effect of the augmentation is an increased sensitivity to touch which is rather nice I might add.  Sitting at eight weeks now as I type this, the transformations are still happening. There is still some shaping happening, there is still changes is skin feeling as well. Another thing to add to this would be the fact that I am and have been on HRT(Hormone Replacement Therapy) so changes that are happening with the surgery are coinciding with the changes from the hormones. This whole event and adventure has truly been a dream that I HAVE realised!! It has taken a lifetime to happen but the point being is that if you truly have a dream or achievement that you wish to live, is to buckle down and do whatever it takes to get it done! There are more things that I need to achieve in this for sure and this amazing event has only reinforced the idea that all those things WILL happen because that is what needs to be done!! Live your dreams, strive for them and never let anything get in your way or stop you from realising all of them!!!!!

Mïta..

Hate And The Battle to End It...

Below is a reply I made on Breast Augmentation Forum in regards to some very discriminatory and hateful words made by the moderators.

"Firstly I would like to say that I am now 7 days post-op and healing amazingly quickly thanks to my doctors amazing work(Dr. Marc Dupere) and good genes ;) On the 14th of January I had Allergen 700cc silicone overs and simply, could not be happier :) My body now matches the girl Ive for so long wished to be :) I'd like to thank all the women on here for sharing their stories and answering pretty much every question that could be thought of. Now my story is a little different than most but I know there are some of you out there like me that are/were hiding and I feel the need to bring this out in the open after having read a post in the FAQ section which kind of well, engaged me a lil bit. See link and text below.."

http://www.justbreastimplants.com/forum/forum-faq/143586-transsexual-men-forum.html

[Recently, we had a transsexual man join the forum. This member was having SRA (sexual reassignment surgery), which includes ba. While I would love to be able to provide support in these types of cases, we just can't. We just don't have the knowledge base for that. Additionally, we've done polls on the forum over the years which asked the question "Are you comfortable with men having ba being on the forum?". Each time, the very large majority votes a resounding "no". The forum has to cater to the larger majority, otherwise there is no forum without members.

We do have gay women on the forum, which no one has ever had a problem with. Men, even if they are having surgery to change their sex, still make some women uncomfortable due to the personal nature of the forum. For this reason, transsexuals are not allowed. It has nothing to do with anyone's views on the subject. On a personal note, I'm very pro when it comes to the rights of the LGBT community.

Just wanted to post and clear this up.]

Now I could go on and on about this for days in regards to the uninformed and insensitive nature of the post but will try to keep it short. Firstly, "Transsexual Men" are men who were born in a female body, just as transsexual women are women who were born in a male body. Secondly, these polls in regards to "men having BA's on the forum" does not address the issue at hand. Is goes way beyond the "bits-and-pieces" that physically differentiate the sexes. Transgendered women ARE WOMEN!!. They are not men "trying to be women" Without a doubt there are transgendered women on this forum hiding because of this very serious error in judgement on the part of the mods on this forum. These girls are looking for information just like EVERY SINGLE CIS WOMAN ON THIS FORUM!! We need to get this information out in the open because it only leads to a large group of girls on the interweb feeling the need to hide who they are when in fact they are so much like each and every one of you, looking for answers to the same question you do. I would ask that the mods remove this hateful and severely misinformed post. If I end up being banned for this, I would like to again thank all the women on here for sharing all of their great and sincere information because it has helped me and MANY transgendered women like myself, this I know for sure :)

Mïta

I would ask any anyone who reads this to visit that forum and please voice your disapproval for these discriminatory remarks in a kind and respectful manner to help fight and change the way people view this incredibly important subject. Thank you to everyone who takes the time to read this blog and act on the hateful speech.

Boob humor 101

Boob humor 101:
Everyday uses of an ample bosom
1.They make a great portable table for resting your plate/bowl while snacking on the couch
2.Catching stray food bits like popcorn from hitting the floor saves on sweeping time

3.Cuddle pillows for a sleepy child or puppy, instant sleepy eyes
4.Fantastic stress balls for yourself and partner with the side effect of increased libido
5.Somehow have become an extra grab point/anchor point for a climbing child's hands and feet, ouch
6.Hypnotic focal point for complete strangers; somehow causing random people to shut out the world around them with a funny awakening like they've risen from a dream where they were falling!! Lol 

Life, Smiles, Dreams, Love...

You know, its truly amazing just how much things can truly change in a little over six months. So much that was planned has been trumped by great opportunity. Again the path of doing what you FEEL is right, just happens to bring amazing change and beautiful things into my life. After leaving my former employment I was dead set on taking a short time off working and then look to enrol myself  into a University program, and then "this" just happened. Well, the path wasn't so straight to the point I have to admit.

First week off was spent taking some time and spending most of it outdoors, biking, hiking and swimming. All the negative was washed away in one day kayaking along the shore of lake Nipissing with Zoë in my lap. Bad energy is pulled from you with such speed outdoors, it truly is THE life filter. Too top off a week of reconnection with myself, nearing the end of it I would find out that my sister was in need of someone to watch my niece for the week :) Emoji-whatever ya call them smileys don't come close to portraying just how happy I was to hear that! Our mornings began with a trip up to the Airport to see all the planes and helicopters arriving and taking off . My niece really liked the blue helicopter, always asking me when its turn to take off would be. She also had a strange fascination with the large yellow tanker truck used to refilling the planes, always commenting on where he was going next, play by play announcer in the making over here. A long visit at a local park for some heavy duty playground activities or a walk down a wooded trail and later in the week, some of the most memorable beach fun I would have all summer :) It was at one of the park visits though, that the week would hit a high I still feel to this day and ever increasing. It was a Thursday in August where I would meet a soul so beautiful, that since that day we have become one, sharing a love that until now have only read about in story books. Joining my niece and I for the remainder of the babysitting time would be this beautiful woman and her amazing little boy. The weather was the best it had been all summer those two weeks. The beaches became our daily hangout playing in the water for hours at a time, my skin still showing the signs of ultra-violet radiation burns in the shape of a swimsuit. I feel I owe a lot to my girlfriend in certain ways. She has helped me shine, literally in some ways, brighter than ever before. She has brought so much greatness into my life that even looking back six months prior to this, I would have never conceived living such a life.


Now one would think; wow, how can things possibly get better than where they are now? Well folks I can tell you. Soon after meeting my girlfriend I had to deal with my current unemployment situation. Not knowing what was out there I decided to get my resume polished up and see what was out there for jobs. The stars have been aligned my way it seems as of late and fate would have it that I would meet my current employer, a family run business, run by great people who provide quality work and an amazing place to make a living. This place has become the final piece of the puzzle in helping a girl achieve her greatest dream. In early December I began to organise the day of my breast augmentation surgery!!! I had been in talks with an amazing doctor in Toronto Ontario two years prior to this writing, having tried to organise the procedure twice in the past to no avail. Whatever system of faith or science you believe in, for me they all came together. I had the full support of my close family, a group of people unwavering in their belief in me. The help of a best friend and his beautiful little family in aiding to watch my pup while away. The companionship and love from my four legged daughter Zoë, a crazy little white flash who's love for life mirrors her Momma Mïta. I had the support of a great employer who supported what was happening in my life without question. To back up my close family support, I also received amazing help, great food and companionship, a four legged K9 nurse and a safe place to lay our heads at night from my girlfriends beautiful family. To top off all these amazing people who would help me, I was blessed with the help, nurturing and most amazing love and devotion a girl could ever ask for from my beautiful girlfriend. On the 14 of January 2014 my dream came true and I had my breast augmentation surgery. The surgery was a great experience that I will never forget. We(my girlfriend and I) spent the early recovering days after surgery exploring downtown Toronto. So many amazing firsts socially, an amazing and perfect place to set the "big girls" free to the world. You could say that we walked with a certain "swagger" down the streets, laughing and simply taking the days one by one, hour by hour, trying not to let a single second slip away. I now sit here feeling so fulfilled and somehow complete. Surrounded by beautiful people each with a beautiful soul. I'm not sure exactly how these next few months are going to play out or even attempt to exceed the roller-coaster of amazement I been accustomed to as of late. Everywhere I look, opportunity awaits, only needing an outstretched hand to grasp the idea to help blossom amazing memories and experiences. Looking down I see dreams finally lived and looking in my arms(and bosom now)I see a beautiful woman with a beautiful child and my furry daughter cuddled together...

What more could a girl ask for, what more could anyone ask to have for that matter. All I know is that I cant wait to see!!! :-)

P.S. : My boobs are KILLER!!!!! ;-)

Life up-dates

Three months have past since my last update and its pretty damn impressive just how much changes in such little time... In these last ninety-ish days I've gone from happily full-time employed to happily full-time unemployed. There are certain things to which the person you are and the things you stand for cannot be compromised. Such was the case in regards to my former employer. Life as a somewhat newly transgendered adult have been in short, utterly amazing. I look back at pictures of the person I was in August of last year and its like looking into the eyes of a stranger physically. An experience I can somewhat describe as the eerie feeling of deja-vu coming to fruition. There are some close friends and people in my past who have chosen to step away and distance themselves with the changes that have blossomed in me. Its truly unfortunate though that they chose to do that I must say and the sole reason I write that is due to the fact that the best of me has yet to truly show itself. What I'm trying to get at is that if you enjoyed our company together in the past, if you hold memories of times spent with me before my transition, I can say that you are 100% missing out on so much more. Life has sped up, happiness has shown no limits and true friends and family have blessed my life with amazement. The story continues, like the described euphoric climb to the top of Mt. Everest. You take each step with purpose, you hold on to those you love like a climbers rope, a lifeline not only of survival but of wonder. When the mountain wind picks up, and the snowstorm attempts to unclench your grasp of the rope, you dig in your heels, stay centered  and persist onwards to your goal. In my experience for the most part, is when people see you fighting for something you believe in, its truly only a matter of time until the courage spills over onto them and like a mountain caravan of friends and family, everyone experiences the great things life has to offer. Helping each other take the next step up, offering a helping hand when someone slips and falls...

Ive written about the amazing person that brought me into this world a long time ago and the strength and compassion she carries. But she isn't the only incredible part of my family.  At the age of eight, my sister came into my life. This little bundle of smiles and attitude that no one could brush aside and ignore. From the get go, she was a very special person. She had a strength in character that was undeniable and to this day I admire. In her youth she would challenge my friends at whatever event or game was being played, without hesitation. There were many times in the wee hours of the morning after a teenage party that she sat co-pilot next to me while I drove. There were times we would be in the driveway at 3 A.M. washing the mud off of moms truck, or accompanying me to fetch a broken license plate in the middle of a swamp while the rest of the house was asleep. She was there. With a smile on her face and a complaint the furthest thing from her mind. Even more amazing about this little girl is the fact that she overcame the loss of her father at the young age of eight and blossomed into the one of the most amazing human beings I have ever had the chance of knowing. Our lives have been both blessed and cursed in ways you could say, but our connection and strength together has always seen us through the dark patches in our lives and will only continue to do so. To top off what she has brought into to my life, is the birth of my niece, and just when I thought that you couldn't pack any more character into such a small package... BOOM!! :) Together, the two of them have cemented the purpose and focus of my life. My energy has a place to be focused, my knowledge a place to be passed along to and my experiences a place to rest..

Hear I sit, present day staring into my pups eyes. Its very hard to say just when things are going to happen. I know there are certain major events in my life that are coming to be, but just when that time is I'm still uncertain. I have put my home up for sale with the decision to go back to school. The day of my breast surgery I feel is getting very close as well. Once that is done there will be on overflowing amount of focus to be guided onto other aspects of my life. The weight on my mind of not having breasts has been such a burden emotionally and its time is coming, and soon. Two months ago I began HRT(Hormone Replacement Therapy) The transformation process of HRT is a slow one and to different affects in different people. In that time, I have begun to see slight changes in the oiliness of my skin. Mentally there are slight differences as well. I do find my feeling of empathy(already a strong emotion for me) has increased, as well as my sensitivity to sadness and happiness. It seems to be more peaky rather than a gradual change. My days of turning wrenches as a means of monetary gain are coming to a long overdue close sometime in the future. Over that past 2 years I have purged most of the negatively impact-full things in my life, whether that be environmentally negative of socially negative. My toys are all self powered and my body has rewarded me. My truck has been sold and now become a car to save on fuel. Employment is coming to a head as well where I wont be affecting the environment in any negative way, something that has bothered me for a long time with my former employers. All of this has reinforced my decision to head back to school and make a difference in peoples lives and a difference in the environment. All of these physical things that I acquired and felt the need to own have all but gone away. I cherish all the memories I experienced with them there's no doubt, but now as I walk or hike rather than ride an ATV(All-Terrain Vehicle),  I feel like they were a diluted experience. Sure the speed thrill was there, but its such a small part of the experience of being outdoors. A subject I can and will go on about next time; Connection to the planet.....

To be continued...


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A formal letter to my co-workers :)

Hello to everyone,
I hope you all have had a great off-season and have had  a chance to relax :) Its looking as though this years sweeping season is going to be busier than last year so I hope you're all ready to get back to work.  The main reason I'm writing this letter is to inform you all  that I have made some changes in my personal life over the winter that were long overdue, manly a change in name. I'm sure some of you may have heard or suspected that I too am transgendered. I would however, like to make it formal to the returning crew and to the new faces we may see this coming season. My original plan was to have my niece/godchild name me when she turned 3, though, with her learning how to speak now, she began calling me Mite rather than Mike, and that is how I came to my new name... Mïta (pronounced M-eye-tah). Ive been extremely blessed with support and acceptance from everyone in my life, family, friends and complete strangers even. I look forward to working with everyone this coming season. Lets hope it's a busy one! :)

Sincerely,
Mïta Gibson

P.S. If anyone has any questions in regards to transgender related issues, please don't be afraid to ask them. I'm an open book and hope that I can help shed some light on trans related issues. As well, if you'd like to know more about my coming out and general trans related issues, check out my blog online at  http://mitastranslife.blogspot.ca/2013/03/in-begining.html